Look............how amazing is God's creation........i jus love it!!!!!!!!!!! hehe.................life is just like a rainbow!!!!!!!!!colourful day!!!!!!!!!!

another month end which i hate the most....i was that busy last month cos i jus did a few little subsidary companies of gamuda.....It's very different this month....i started to do 22 out of 25 subsidaries.........and i haf onli 4 working days to finish it......

i was wondering at 1st, how am i goin to do wif jus a little time and yet the number is large........22 companies is not a small amount wif quite a number of employees working in each companies.......as i do, i feel like crying and jus wana throw everytin and give up jus like that.....but in the hand, when i calm down myself and think........

"what will happen to other employees if i were to stop doin?"

"what will happen to other employess if i were to give up?"

the answer IS every1 could not get their salary on time........i cant be so selfish......tat's really will an impact to the company if were to give up or stop doin.......instead when such answer appear into my mind, i started to realize and do even motivate me to finish it as soon as possible........

4 days.........i work for 4 long days.........finally, i haf finish my job......i felt great 2day although i dun haf good sleep for this few days.....i felt so relieve when i finish all the employees salary........a very happy feeling that i cant explain.........a feeling of satisfaction.........haha........

i realized working life has never been easy....... it's challenging but sumtimes may be suffering..........haha..........but anyhow, i will work hard............

a month passed since my last blog........have been very fed up wif TM le.......till now haven't even fix my telephone line........haih.......making my life sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!

graduation has passed..........now is my time to work for my future.......early morning when i wake up today, i felt a little meaningless.......wake up in the morning, go for work till evening, come back have my dinner, and then watch a little movie then get to sleep......what kinda of life i am living??????? is this lifestyle going to go on and on????? what can i do to make my life more meaningful???????

working in Gamuda is never been easy.......the workload is so much.......stressful sometime........i thought goin to a MNC is good for my career advancement....yes......they do haf a lot.....but sumtime......in a big company........i felt hard to survive.......but i told myself i shall never give up.......my colleague told me i will be doing the payroll for this month.....i really hope i can manage it.....let c how is my working environment......

this is me and yein shee....my former colleague......i do miss her a lot.....she is the most friendly person i can say in the company.....God gave us tis oppprtunity to noe each other........i am now replacing all her work.......

me, yein shee and wai yee.....

ellyn, me and yein shee.....

hmm......this is my workstation.......Gamuda has its own room for payroll people....i dont understand why....perhaps everytin is alwis P & C......tat's y i am being station in this room....haha......

stress is still more ahead of me.......wish me luck those who read my blog......hehe.........

TADA.........i am back again...........to my lovely blog and of course my home sweet home....IPOH..........celebrating my mum's birthday!!!!!!!!! if not where got connection for me to update my blog le.......haih........

i am going thru tough days now........haih.........without internet connection, without jobs, without money, without everyting......kinda so lost.........talking about job..........i dont think a person would be like going for the job then 3 days later i say quit.........i am so proud of myself (SWT!!!!!!!!) hehe......nothing to be proud of instead.......i am jus creating a bad image on myself.......but what to do.......i really dont like the job.........

people in there are really crazy..............they dont talk with each other.........i dont know how they survive............eventually, there are time when they talk.........only with candidate who wana apply job thru the phone............crazy rite??????? just talking on the phone for whole day...........and browse thousand of resumes non stop...........day by day............i really cant stand they way they work............

i just want a job which will enable me to learn and gain as much experience as i could..........and not a job like wat i did before i quit.........by the way, i work as a recruitment consultant (headhunter)........have been crying a lot thru the nights when i accepted this job...........finally after the 3rd day, i really cant stand..........what i gonna do is just to file in resignation letter...........for my own good and also the company........... now i am unemployed again.........haih..........

i really regret what i did in my first job........i shouldn't have quit the 1st job........i dont blame IBM for my resume being KIV even though they told me they are going to hire me.........i just is a little not unfair to me.......but i cant do anythin so do the hiring manager............i just blame myself for being to greedy or selfish thinking i can get a better salary and job..........but in the end i got nothing........it has been a great lesson to me...........think probably before making any decision.......

well, i have lots more to blog actually........looking at the time now........i wana sleep le.......gonna go church..........will blog again soon........hope to get my internet connection as soon as possible...........2 more weeks...........my connection is ready..........i am just like a dead person without internet............hehe...........i will blog my precious moment with my besties soon...............

lastly..........i would like to wish my mum HAPPY BIRTHDAY.............without you i will never been on this earth.......you meant a lot to me........my lovely mum........i will always love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what is patience?????? this word seem appearring in my mind since few weeks ago........i think i have been patience enough all this while.......... waiting for jobs..........

i have been waiting for calls everyday from morning till evening..........but none of them call.........i called Ibm on Monday......she ask me not to worry as i will be accepted......just have to wait for the Hr department to call me.........and till now i yet to received any call...........It's very suffering..........waiting day by day without any calling..........how long more i have to wait?????????? i do apply for other company.........but no respond also...........what happen??????

i lost a friend on sunday..........me and him no longer friend..........is very hurt to lost him but i guess is better to lost a friend who alwis scare of his gf.........he ask me not to disturb him.........i have asked myself since when i disturb him.........i just sms him to ask how is he????? is this called disturb?????? bullshit!!!!!!!! from then i started to look down upon him.........i even scolded him pengecut...........he has hurt more than enough since few years ago........wat did i get in the end?????? hurts and hatred..........

sometimes i wondered why people say couples who break cannot be friends anymore......and now i understand.......i thought we both make a great friends............but not until on sunday i realized is all bullshit thing........a good friend??????? a bad friend indeed........hehe.......... i wish all the best in his futures le...........i will never want you as friend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

goodbye to you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!